super super damn tired..

rarely have time to properly rest and rot OTOT..

haix.. what to do, everything's breaking down.. and I gotta stand up and be strong.. I'm just afraid that one day, I might breakdown again, or I'm surpressing my breakdown motion, so not to get people worry abt me.. everyone has their up n down time, I will share my up times with you, but dont expect me to share my downtime with you, cause I hate people to see that I'm weak.. I hate people to see me in tears..

I wanna go out to the working society, I hate studying though it's a privillage to be able to study till this age.. I want to work towards my dream.. doing something I like and will never regret.. I know I dont have the money to do so, but I will try.. and I hope that people who love me, could support me of my dreams instead of asking me to do something I dislike..

so sick n tired of people saying things.. I've changed, you can see it.. stop asking me to change and get back to the normal me cause nothing will get me back to my usual self.. so what if I'm more fashion consious now? so what If I want to attract attention from the opposite sex? so what if I want to hangout with my friends? so what?

my harddrive spoilt, tio virus like nobody's business, when want to transfer to harddisk, harddisk crash.. wtf la.. now using another harddrive to run this laptop.. haix.. cause papa so much trouble..

list of things I want to and HAVE TO buy:
- laptop ( MACBOOKPRO preferably )
- harddisk
- thumbdrive ( 8GB )
- more JEANS plz!
- versitile tops ( I know it gonna cost a bomb, but multitasking things are always my fav. )
- IPHONE!!!
- shoes that can bring me day to night, sweet to punk, glam to rock. =) work hard designers!
- rings and more rings! ( quirky ones will be spotted RIGHT AWAY~! )
- bags bags and bags! ( again, quirky bags are my target now xD )
- sushi~! more and more sushi!
- FANCL facial cleansing oil !!
- LEARN BELLY DANCING until my belly says, STOP DANCING!
- I want to go skiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing~~~~!
- and backpacking!

=)

I want to sing and dance. love clubs alot! MINUS the fking cigaratte smokes.. and people, plzzzzz plzzzzz buy expensive cig, cause your cheapo cig is fking killing the air scent..